he gazed into the crowd, but he saw nothing. she was there , they were there but he didn’t see a thing. in fact he hasn’t seen anything for a while now.
he listened to the noises , but he heard nuthin. peple were cheerin, clapping and givin hazy speeches but he didnt heard a thing, in fact he hasn’t heard much lately either.
he was standing among others. Acting like others, but he was not there. Indeed he has not even been there for a while now. As if it’s just a swirly dream, he could hear bliss as the background music. In front of him, he could see ants swimming in the ocean. And he , he was driving on a twirly endless road towards the darkness with headlights off. moon was at its full glory, lighting up the road ahead of him.
but it wasn’t a dream, and he wasn’t on the road to nowhere.
he looked above, carefully searching for her. 
“is she biting her nails?” he asked himself.